Axelgurl

[x] the dark (moreso of what's IN the dark) [?] staying single forever (this is an iffy one. I know I love my fiancee and don't ever want to lose him but don't know how to answer this one. [ ] being a parent (not so much as I used to be. I would love to have children with my future husband.) [x] giving birth (for more reasons than the pain) [ ] being myself in front of others [x] open spaces (in the dark) [x] closed spaces (I'm always terrified of getting stuck somewhere scary) [ ] heights [ ] dogs [ ] birds [x] fish (there are some freaky-ass fish out there that I would not like to come in contact with) [x] spiders (only big hair

My art style has certainly improved, and I have begun to experiment with new media as well. I find myself doing a lot more painting than drawing recently, and while my painting skill is still rather low, I find that I am improving quite a bit. Right now, I a working on a portrait of my fiancee and myself which I may or may not post on here. It depends on how well it turns out and all that. Right now, I'm still applying base colors. I haven't started working with making it "come to life" so to speak. In addition to this, I have two paintings that I did a year ago that I would like to display. These paintings display the beginning of my wanting

This is the first of the series I mentioned in my last entry. In this first one, I will be explaining what's been going on in my life since I last made contact with you guys. The last journal I submitted was in November of 2011, and now that I think back on it, that was about when my troubles began. Note that this will be pretty long and detailed, so if you're not a reader, I'm sorry. So, November 2011......I guess that month in particular wasn't so bad, but it was what happened in the following months that made life difficult. Starting about that time was when I joined Team Nitro Crate and was beginning to build relationships with the othe